Leaving that morning at 6am for the airport was one of the hardest things I have ever done and I know that sounds dramatic but it was so tough. I had my sister stay over the night before so that she’d be there when Avery woke up and I would have to wake her. I did my final visit into her room before we left, watching her sleep so peacefully with tears flowing down my face. I couldn’t stop thinking “why am I doing this?” None the less we ventured to the airport and got a FaceTime with our girl before boarding the plane.
The first 3-4 days were magical! Some much needed R&R - we hadn’t been away just the 2 of us since our honeymoon for 4 years and we were due! We would get a morning and evening FaceTime with Avery and she would tell us about her day, ask to see the pool and tell us what she was up to. To top it off, she even had a sick day in there where she stayed home with a fever. I finally got into a rhythm of thinking “wow this is great, why did we wait so long!” But around day 4 things started to shift. She didn’t really enjoy FaceTime as it would upset her and she was generally getting sad and let me tell you, there is nothing worse than not being able to snuggle her! Selfishly I wanted to call her all the time to see how she was but we made the decision to limit the FaceTime and approach it with an “out of site, out of mind” kind of attitude which seemed to slightly help. As the week progressed I got more and more “ready” to just be home with her as it broke my heart to hear she was like this.
Now for the other side of things, let me tell you how amazing 7 nights of only thinking for yourself is. Late dinner reservations, sleep ins, full days at the beach. Not playing lifeguard or worrying about nap time/bed time, just taking some much needed time as a couple and not “mom and dad.” If you have the support to make it happen, I would say do it! We have just learned that our “us trips” are more around that 3-4 day length.
To say I underestimated the impact that 7 nights would have on her doesn’t even scratch the surface. We are 4 days back and I am still struggling with leaving her anywhere, in her room at bedtime, 45 min dance class, pre-school drop off - she literally tells me she thinks I won’t come back. It is HEARTBREAKING! It is also one of those growth milestones for both of us, a trust builder that when I go, I will come back. Now, trying to really have this sink in to an almost 3 year old is tough but we are getting there! But with consistency and back to routine my hope is we will get back into everyday life in no time!